Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of myself.
Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. Joshua 1:9
The thing you are struggling with has crippled your ability to reflect honestly about your life. This step requires you to open your heart for inspection. Jesus tells us:
For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. Matthew 6:21
This scripture means what ever you are allowing to influence you is what kind of action you are going to have. Sometimes we don't want to look in the mirror and see our self to who we really are. We really don't want other people to know who we are either, that's why we put on a front, because of fear of the truth. Jesus says:
And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. John 8:32
In the last step 3 you decided to turn your life over to Jesus and trust in him, now you have to have the willingness to trust in Him by surveying or summarizing the thoughts, events, emotions, and actions of your life.
For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.
1 Corinthians 13:12
When you see darkly, there is something hidden, something you are covering. Jesus says:
I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life. John 8:12
When you have Jesus in your heart that light of His over comes all the darkness, and all the things that are hidden will be exposed. This is why you don't have to fear, that is what fearless means. You don't have to allow fear stop you from being thorough in the inventory process, it means you commit to rigorous honesty as you focus on events in your life. There are times we let what we did in the past get in our way allowing condemnation and guilt to overcome us. Paul speaks about this:
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-14
In the past you probably justified wrong behavior and blamed other people or things you had created. Now you will begin to take responsibility for past actions. The word says:
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17
Right now open up your heart to Jesus and trust in Him and become truthful to yourself and to others.
Step Four Review
1. What does God want us to do?
2. What did that thing your are struggling with cripple your ability to do?
3. Your actions are based upon what?
4. Because of fear what are people afraid of?
5. What will set you free?
6. What must you have the willingness to do?
7. What does it mean when you see darkly?
8. What overcomes the darkness?
9. What causes comdemnation and guilt?
10. Who did Adam blame for his actions?